Acting Ugly

I've found myself in a strange new land.  A land where bullshit runs rampant and sex is the preferred currency.  Love has no place here.  Romance can't stay here and unfortunately I can't remember the turn I made that led me to this place.  If I follow biblical knowledge, I'll find a way to be here without looking like I belong here...which is hard to do.  My mind does not believe that I enjoy the indulgences of this town, but something within me is dying to try things out.  Desire leads me to streets unknown and the more I follow desire the further away I get from home.  The more necessity takes me from address to address, the less I'm able to decipher need from excess.  There is a lesson for me to learn and without it I won't be able to leave.  I needed to find grace and mercy for those who, some time ago, have walked these streets.  I lacked compassion for those with homes unlike mine.  The trials I endure here burn.  They burn to keep the ugly out... of my spirit.